The past couple of weeks have been insane over here in Fiddle Knits Design world. July is my busiest month by far for performing in 2010 and then to top it off I had some major design deadlines (all of which have been met) and a wedding to attend.
The Homegrown String Band has so far traveled to Massachusetts, Connecticut, Maryland, Delaware, and Virginia this month. Some of the gigs have been good and few... well, not so much. But I'm going to spare you all and won't get into doing any complaining. In just a few minutes we'll be back out on the road heading to Massachusetts once more for a gig in Boston tomorrow. Then we have a couple shows in upstate NY. I will be home just in time for my birthday on Sunday, which I plan to spend relaxing with my man.
On Saturday Chris's older brother got married. It was a scorching hot day and I can't imagine how the wedding party managed. I know Chris was pretty damn hot, but he still looked cute in his tux. (I decided I definitely do not want to get married in the Summer. I'm going Fall all the way because really, I want to knit myself some cute accessory and not have to leave it behind somewhere! An elegant shawl or capelet would be charming for a Fall wedding. Don't you think?)
[photo at right: Me and Chris's nephew, Logan.]Amidst all the chaos I've been trying to make some major life decisions. Basically my predicament is that I want to move out of my parents house. Desperately! I'm about to turn 26 next week and I need some space. 4 adults in a fairly small house isn't always the easiest thing in the world. Especially when you are not just family and housemates, but also coworkers and friends as well. It's too much for anyway to handle and nerves have been getting frayed. Unfortunately the area I live in (north east shore of Long Island) is very expensive and that makes it difficult to move out on your own. So, my big dilemma is that I really need to move out because I can't keep living home and playing in the family band, it's just too much. But, to move out I need to be pulling in more money, so I'd have to quit playing music and get another job. The big thing I'm afraid of is that another (fulltime) job that will allow me to move out will not allow me to continue to design and ultimately I really want to pursue my knitwear design goals and see how far I can take that. I think I might like to be an in-house designer for a yarn company.... Doesn't that seem like fun? Maybe publishing a book would be an adventure... Pairing up with a yarn company and putting together a few leaflets... All these things appeal to me and all of them I'd have to put on the back burner for another job just to move out. I don't necessarily want to give up playing music... I think if I could move out and live with Chris I'd feel a lot better about traveling sometimes and have an easier time working with and being friends with my family. So you might say just stay home and tough it out, but that's really not an option for me right now. Something's gotta give. Oh what to do! Lots of brainstorming has been happening and I feel like I'm running myself in circles! There will be plenty of musing happening on the car ride to Massachusetts today. Oh yes, thinking and knitting.
I'm beginning to wish I'd known when I went to college that I'd end up designing. I would have gone for fashion design! Oh well. I had fun with the cultural anthropology and performing arts.
I'd better go make sure I have enough knitting packed. 5 days on the road calls for more than just the hat I cast on yesterday!
